I also need to give myself permission to grieve. It's a month today since Dad died. I've put my head down and worked so darn hard since getting back to Singapore, appearing brave and strong. But today, I unravelled a bit and ended up in tears. So my head has been thumping ever since.
While I was crying to my husband, I also fessed up that my eating has gone bizarre this week. It was so good to say it! I went down to the gym for the first time in several weeks, turned the music up loud and had a great session on the cross trainer.
Time to get back on the horse....
Welcome back - we have missed you!
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your dads passing, you do need time to grieve and process what has happened so don't be too hard on yourself.
It will get better but it will be a slow process.
Good luck.
Welcome back Deb!
ReplyDeleteYou have been missed!
So Sorry to hear about yout dad :( Take your time! its call a grieving PROCESS for a reason, you need to go through the levels.
Glad to see your back :)
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ReplyDeleteDon't think it...Do it! said...
Hi Deb...welcome back! I have been the same...gaining and losing the same 2kg, maintaining extremely well, but still not at goal (but very close to goal). I have come on here three times in the last 2 weeks, compared with hardly ever for 4 or so months...yet i used to be a daily poster! That oomph just disappeared and I lost all motivation. I forgot about the great support and advice we get on here! You have gone through so much stress over the past month or so...with your dad and then the earthquake affecting your inlaws, then just life in general. You need to give yourself permission to do whatever you need to do, however long it takes, and feel however you want, openly feel, with no sense that you need to hide those feelings! Hopefully we can chat more often and give each the kick up the butt we need! :)
I've been wondering what happened. I'm sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteYes, don't forget to let yourself grieve.
Welcome back Deb, it's great to hear from you again and I am glad you are getting back on that horse.
ReplyDeleteI know the feeling of "maintaining" when I still have close to 40kg to go, but like Don't think it..Do it says we just have to let it take however long it will take. We will get there.
I am sorry to hear about your dad and it's good to unravel sometimes. I remember doing the exact same thing. I got one of those telemarketing calls for my dad saying he had won a holiday and I just burst into tears on the phone into the ladies ear. I could barely speak to tell her he had passed away - 12 months ago. So although it has only been a month for you, there will still be times that you will just lose it and cry. I still do and it's been nearly 12 years for me, but you know what - it's ok to do that, to unravel and cry and eat crappy (sometimes), but as long as you keep getting back on that horse you will make it xx
Welcome back Deb and I'm so sorry to hear about your dad :( big hugs to you lovely lady xx
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about your dad Deb, even when it's expected it doesn't make it any easier. Take your time and let yourself grieve. Well done for maintaining so well through such a turbulent time & good on you for taking ownership of how your weight loss journey has progressed in the last week.
ReplyDeleteYou will get back on the horse so to speak & you will reach your goals. Sometimes they just take a little longer. I'm glad to have you back :)
Sorry to hear about your Dad Deb, I had been wondering how things were going with you. Don't be too hard in yourself, work through what you need to work through and we'll be here waiting ;-)
ReplyDeleteDeb, big hugs for you!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm exactly the same - I've maintained since Christmas, but it's time to get going again :)
Let's do this!!!