I've lost 27.7kg so far, and I'm still not half way! But, I've been thinking today that my biggest achievement is not on the scales. I'm proudest of the fact that I have completely changed my lifestyle in terms of food choices AND I actually exercise now. I've always like fruit and veggies so that wasn't difficult when I joined WW, but cutting out the crappy snack foods, biscuits, baked goods with butter, chocolate etc was tough. I've had to train myself to use fruit for my sweet fixes. And I literally move away from sweet treats if someone brings them to work. I don't trust myself to be within reach of them. At home, if I crave something I shouldn't have, I brush my teeth or go and work out. Giving up all those things has (almost) become 2nd nature to me. I was a silent, stealthy eater, believing that if nobody saw me eat it, then nobody would know. Ummm... how did I think they wouldn't know I ate crap when they saw my 138kg bulky body???
I'll be tested this week when I am home for 4 days by myself. I've planned good healthy treats and been talking to myself about not caving in just because I'm alone. How weird - some women are scared to be home alone for safety reasons. Not me - I'm scared to be home alone cos I might have an eating binge. (I have never confessed this before, EVER!!)
Prior to this year, I was a total couch potato and never, ever exercised. I hurt my back last week, over-doing things in the gym. I took a couple of days off from exercising, but got all jittery and couldn't wait to be able to get active again. So, I went for a 20 min walk last night, and a 30 min walk tonight. I think that if I exercise early each day that I am alone, I will feel less likely to binge because I won't want to undo my hard work.
So, this 4-day weekend without my husband, and without work to go to, will be a good time to prove to myself that I really have changed my ways. Wish me luck! (or write to me to check up on me...)\
Hey Deb,
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you've strained your back, but I'm glad you're managing some walking again - sounds like you really thrive on exercise and that it's very important to you! I will have my fingers crossed that you survive the weekend without binging - I have been slowly plodding along, trying to claw back the 3kg I put on and I'm pleased to say that it's looking like a substantial loss this week so hopefully some motivation will come back soon :) Right now it's just me gritting my teeth and getting on with it - I've got ten months till I have to fit into a wedding dress!
Anyway, hopefully we will see a post from you this weekend and that it will all go well for you! Will be thinking of you :)
Kase xx
Deb,
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you!
You've totally got this in the bag x
Hope
Deb - I am proud of you as well - you are going so well and give us all lots of inspiration and support!
ReplyDeleteThank you and keep up the amazing transformation!
Lisa